You'd be forgiven if you don't, as it's been a while since my last blog, and for that I apologise.
That old demon ambivalence sneaked in last week and surreptitiously devoured most of my commitment to SW (and blogging) and replaced them with an unhealthy dose of "devil may care".
And also handed me 1.5 pounds of fat at weigh in on Friday. Ohhhh the horror!!!!!!!!!!!!
But a gain is a gain is a gain and it's not the end of the world. I went off plan quite a few days with this and that (I know exactly where and exactly why and it was all avoidable), but I thought everything would be OK and that this early on in my weight loss, I'd either stay the same or lose. I didn't. I put on weight and it is definitely a lesson learned.
Be aware of the demons, they are lurking everywhere!
My demon mostly comes out in the evenings after work. I find it quite easy to stick completely to plan during my work day, I always bring my lunch and healthy snacks and I am absorbed and thoroughly enjoy my job, so my working day usually flies by, with SW food being a nice part of that.
Then I get home, where my demon is patiently waiting for me, opening the fridge and kitchen cupboards and pouring a relaxing glass of my favourite boozy tipple with a loving smile (and a SW dagger behind his back!). My demon looks like this....
He always has VERY persuasive arguments for veering off plan when I'm alone, bored, happy, peckish, tense, moody, sad.......the list goes on. OK, OK, he could proffer a persuasive argument pretty much 24 hours a day, if I let him!!
And that my dear readers, is why for me, making SW a lifestyle plan, is so important. If I treat SW as "just a diet" or a "quick fix for Christmas" or some other occasion (which it isn't for me, as my weight just doesn't come off that quickly), I am setting myself up for failure, because everything I love to eat and drink suddenly becomes a forbidden pleasure and such an irresistible temptation that I cave in as soon as my demon appears and I end up stuffing my face or boozing, whilst my demon chuckles delightedly and eggs me on.
And (if I let him), he would bash me on the head with his SW guilt stick to remind me what a terrible person I am and what a failure I've become.
I'm aware of my demon and I've had a long hard think about how to banish him from my SW kingdom. Cue avoiding triggers like boredom and habit and replacing them with something which will divert my attention during the "evil hours", i.e. my weakest hours which are usually between 5pm - 7pm weekdays. I might even blog, so you'll all be sick of the sight of me after a couple of weeks, LOL!
I was firmly on plan yesterday (Saturday). Sorry no photos, I must get better at capturing my food on camera before it is captured by my mouth. I had eggs and baked beans for breaky/brunch, a bit of a snacky mid afternoon with a Mugshot and HEX ryvitas with ham/tomatoes and my tea was chicken tarragon pasta with leeks and spinach, which you all know is my quick and delicious "go to" recipe. I also made a huge vat of free minestrone soup for lunches and snacks all week, packed full of veggies and pasta, delicious!
I've gotta do some flexi-syns today, as my OH and I are going for dinner at our friends' house and I've no idea what they will be cooking, but it's bound to be gorgeous and Italian, with fantastic rustic bread and olive oil. I cannot wait! In lieu of the humungous calories lying in wait for me, I am only eating super-free foods til I get there and I will be firmly back on plan tomorrow.
So I will be savouring and loving every mouthful of our friends' home cooked delicious dinner whilst I eat it AND ensuring that I deftly dodge my demon's guilt stick afterwards **blows big raspberry in demon's general direction**
So it's TTFN my lovely readers. Love yourselves and love SW!
c
xx
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